i’m so proud of me.  i had a really long and genuine conversation with a former friend i’ve spent a long time avoiding.  about a year and a half ago, she basically told me i was a terrible person and that she didn’t want to be my friend because i was toxic.  and i responded in feeling terrible about myself, being antisocial, and hating her guts.  and we just ran into each other and talked.  and it was real, and it was nice.  and like then we ran into some other friends, and we all hung out together.  and for the first time in a long time, i feel like my social life could be whole and not fractured.